Digging up a domicile

A lot of people have been very pessimistic towards my intention on buying a house this summer.  Well, I'm here to tell you that it's going to happen.  You can't tell me its improbable to be successful and expect me to lay flat on my back. No. You tell me it's not normal for a young woman of my age to be buying into real estate, I'm going to prove to you that I don't do normal.  If I see a house like this one and I have the money to do so, I am going to buy it.  "well sometimes things don't always work out the way you want them to..." he says. I say "If I put my mind to do something, it will happen and I will make it work." You know me well enough by now to realize that I'm not going to let other people put me down.  I don't take the easy roads, and I don't settle for less than what I deserve.  Buying a house has pros and cons sure, but they are the same pros and cons that other home buyers experience and are no more inclined to overcome them than myself.  A house like this might be perfect for me to step into.  It's not a mansion and it probably won't be my last house.  Ellensburg is a renter's market and I don't see too many problems with finding someone to rent it when I'm ready to move on.  I may not have a lifetime of experience with money but I can tell you that my conservative spending habits have kept my bank in the green, and will always continue to do so.  I have family and friends who are more than willing to help me with this venture so its not like I'm soloing it.  So people, stop being 'fraidy cats and grow a pair.  I have no fear of this so stop trying to act like you care by telling me to give up now.  When I hear you say something to the effect of: "maybe this isn't a good idea..." the only thing I hear is "I'm too afraid to do that and I don't think you should do it either." I am not you. I am a smart girl and I may learn a few lessons in doing this, but as I learn it now I will be more prepared in my future. So I dare you to try to tell me no.

Wish the weather looked better

For all general purposes I am a really good student.  I pay attention in class (snore...), I read my text books (wait, I bought text books?), I do my homework (wasn't that due next Thursday?), and I show up to class (forgetting to wake up is a perfectly decent absence excuse).  I'm just joking really, I am a good student... well, I was. The past three weeks have been a terrible blemish on my 3.75GPA record of achievement.  I haven't done my Spanish homework in a whole week, I've skipped two classes to take the time to take tests, and right now I have no idea what's on my Geology test tomorrow because I think I've been taking a mental hiatus during those hours. I feel... normal.  Of course, this is completely abnormal for myself, and it's very gray and uninteresting.  I'm coming down with a horrible case of senioritis, except I'm not a senior.  I mean, I'm graduating in a couple weeks so I suppose that would be about the same thing.  I just want for everything to be over with.  It feels like I've been drowning for the past 6 weeks and now my lungs have finally given up even trying.  I've been waking up later and later, eating more, and generally caring less. I need a week where I can just go free and let my mind wander. I'm tired of doing homework and schoolwork and just any work in general.
My job sucks. I mean, I think its a great job; its not a great job for me. I don't like working with grumpy customers, cooking disgusting food, and cleaning filth. The pay, I've noticed, is lame. It's all going straight into my savings account and thats fine, whatever. I wish I felt a bit more important or useful. As of right now, I am a peon. How sad...
Looking at prospective classes to take in the fall... How does cultural anthropology, linguistics, and intro to archaeology sound? I think it sounds like a dream.  Its going to feel strange to be able to take whatever classes I want. So far I've had to follow these cookie cutter shape general requirements.  I feel like I'm getting closer everyday to my PhD. I'm so excited.
Maybe one day when I have a stable household of my own I would like for my sister to come stay with me.  I feel like I owe her some stability.  Making a solid home base for myself is a top priority right now, and assuming I achieve this, I would like if my sister would join me.  I can't say that I'm ready for this right now, or when I'll be ready for it, but it would be nice to look forward to.

Feeling a bit stuck

Life has officially caught up with me to say the least.  During my spring break I applied for a job at the local supermarket and low and behold I got the job with very little effort. I was certainly expecting to come up against walls and barricades of all sorts, but it was as easy as pie.  I'm not saying that I think the economy has fully recovered but I do think that everything is looking a bit brighter for everyone else.  I can't say as much for myself.  I'm in school all day and working all evening and I'm on my feet constantly through all of it and my ANs (Accessory Naviculars) aren't too happy with that right now.
I am really not very happy with my family right now. I feel like I've let them down and now they are just making everything worse by letting me down.  I want everyone in my family to make the right choices, and most of the time I think they do.  But it seems that once one person starts going down everyone else tries to catch them and everyone ends up bombed at the bottom.  Its a sticky situation, but we all need to stick to our guns or give up altogether.
What this family needs to realize is that we don't have the capabilities to take on more than we can chew.  As its going right now we are heading into an all-you-can-eat buffet with full mouths.  It is so ridiculously selfish to think that we can handle a shitstorm like this.  There are people out there who want to be parents! They have been waiting all their lives for a chance to have a little baby girl and thus far have not been able to have one. What do we have? No house, we're sqatters on a pig sty in the middle of Davey Crocket's backyard, no jobs, failing school, no responsibility, no goals, and no personal boundaries. Why do we think we can handle a baby? Because we have love and family sticks together? Love does not feed mouths, and family is already torn to tatters trying to keep us afloat and kind of failing thus far.  For someone who can't properly raise a dog or keep decent grades, a baby just doesn't fit in the puzzle.
Now let's get one thing clear: I don't think raising a child is going to fail (at least not right away). But any kid raised by teenage parents is not going to be a shining gold star in society.  I want you to imagine if your parents were teenagers when you were little. Imagine all the angst, stress, tantrums, and general immaturity.  They aren't going to have time to spend with you because they have social lives to keep up.  You're going to be neglected.  Daddy ain't gonna stick around for long because he doesn't have the motivation, time, or maturity to take on the responsibility.  That is going to make you think that it's okay to act the same way as you grow up. It's not the environment you would want to grow up in, so why do you want to raise your kid that way?
There is a family out there who wants to be parents, or maybe they already are and they want another. They have a house, jobs, parenting skills, and a big empty yard ready to be filled with toys.  Letting a baby grow up in a stable house with a prepared family doesn't mean that you won't ever see her again.  You can stay in touch with the family always and you know that one day when she is all grown up she will surely want to meet you and find out everything about you.  I can't imagine that she would rather have stayed with you assuming that she's smart (and you know she will be) she'll realize that you had to make a decision to better suit her health.  This kid needs to grow up in an environment that is STABLE and RELIABLE and PREPARED.
Please.... please make the decision that has the BEST possible outcome for the baby.

When you got a good thing

Welcome to my Spring Break, and happy first day of Spring tomorrow! It's warm here, and that's shocking.  I sat for 15 minutes out in my backyard with my pup and the sun on my face felt great. It is starting to give those faint smells of Summer in Washington, that smell that I love so much.  You know how different places give off special smells right before it rains, or right after a thunder storm? Well in Seattle it smells great whenever the sun is out.  Its funny when the sun is out because people go mad; they mow lawns and walk dogs and kids run through the streets like crazy little urchins.  On a normal gray day I'm lucky if I get a glimpse of a neighbor's face.
The past couple days have been energized with creativity.  I finished about 3 of my pencil pieces that I had started a while back. It really does feel great to finish something and it is especially good when the finished product looks absolutely great! I have decided to try to keep drawing as much as possible during break, I never get a chance while I'm slaving over school assignments.

Please see my deviant page here.

Well here I am, starting my last quarter before I get my AA degree.  The excitement for moving on to bigger places this fall is rocketing through my veins. I could use some help from someone to walk on my back to get all these stress kinks out.
I think I'm going to try to get a job for the summer, but I'm not going to kill myself just for a position. I'd like to be selective about where I work; something close, easy, and not too degrading. The only thing that matters about the pay is that its something. Maybe I could do some babysitting around the neighborhood or bagging groceries at the market down the street. Let me know if you want me to watch your kids!
I saw a sneak peak preview of the Disney Princess Repunzel movie coming out this Fall, exciting! I miss being a little kid and being able to watch princess movies all the time, but I suppose no one would mind too much if I stick with the habit even as an adult.

Golden goals and things of kings

Boy-wonder of the real golden age.  Of course his reign was not long or world-shatteringly significant, we can't put aside the sparkling fact that he holds a special place in every educated person's heart. Pharaoh Tutankhamen is a cutie by all accounts, especially his coin purse, makes me a bit jealous of his sister.

 

Egyptology is an alluring field of study for all archaeologists I suppose. I think that I could excel in that field... deserts, obelisks, and mummies; why not? I've been extremely interested in archaeology ever since a silly field trip in the 3rd grade visiting the Taos Pueblo, but ask me what I want to do as an archaeologist and I wouldn't be able to give you a straight answer. I like the idea of picking through ancient south american ruins deep in the heart of the Amazon jungle. I also think it would be a torrent of fun to work with primates, linguistics, and ancient religions. I have a physical affinity with paleoanthropology, due to my darling accessory naviculars but I may not have the intellectual drive to follow through with that heavy load of medical studies.

Taos Pueblo, N.M.

I did a bit of research on what its going to be like trying to get a PhD in Archaeology and at first glance it looked just as difficult as I expected it to be. As I read a bit more I realized that most of what I found was aggrandizement trying to make a PhD look like an impossible feat. With only 16 archaeology PhDs awarded in University of WA in 2006 it did seem like a slim chance. But I don't think it is impossible. I think that I will be able to do this with flying colors and not a skipped beat. After I get my AA, I've only got 9 more years to go! Everyday that I receive junk mail in my mailbox will be a day started with a smile. Every envelope I pick up will have the name Dr. K. Harig on it.

Also, I may decided to take another course of action other than the Peace Corps after I get my BA. I think that it may be an interesting experience to help an organization for the aid and preservation of endangered ape species such as orangutans, bonobos, chimpanzees, or gorillas. I mean, how can you say no to a face like this?